day 2 at leeds

today a bunch of malaysians came into leeds, they appear to be cool characters. i've met one of them in the visa office. now there's a bunch of us without a house to stay all of us just bunking in with these guys. kinda a cool of them to let us bunk here. i'm very grateful. as to how i'm feeling, still dazed. i actually wrote a quite long story yesterday night in my blog but i accidentally close the page. too lazy to type back again. it's all about fear and the why i'm not affraid. the thing is maybe this freeze up in my feelings is a defense mechanism, built in to not let me get affected by lonelyness. i don't know. ofcourse yesterday i wrote a lot about my princess also but lets not get into that. i guess in time i'll just settle in, with myself and the surroundings here. there is one thing i am affraid of though, all the malaysians here speak english, like a bit pasar malam english. i'm just affraid that they'll push me aside because i speak fluent english. they might think i'm showing off but i'm really not. i hope theydon't read my blog. ofcourse it's hard for them to replace my friends back home. damn i miss ricardo. but you know who i miss the most, not my princess (i miss her too). I MISS MY MOM!!!!...wish i can just fly home give her a hug and come back here. i hope she's fine, i hope she doesn't cry too much. i hope my dad and brother don't give her a hard time like they always do. mom if you read this, i want you to know i love you the most in my life, you mean more to me than anyone else could ever be. love you mom...oh by the way it's only 11.30am here.