8 days left...tick tock

well, i was saying that it still hasn't hit me yet that i'll be leaving the country...true, it hasn't. i really don't why, maybe it cause i haven't packed yet. well actually all my clothes are in the study room already, just need some help to fold them and put them in the bags...maybe then it'll hit me. i'm not worried about how i'll survive there alone, i'm not even worried about how i'll do in my studies there...to be honest, i'm cocky right now, i think it'll be a breeze. but who knows. i know i'm gonna miss a lot of things, family and friends especially. my princess i'm already missing her so much, so i guess i'll just have to pack more kleenex. i'll miss my mom the most. i'll miss her feeding me dinner, miss her playing with my hair at nights, miss her ice milo, i'll miss her looking at me....don't worry mom i'll be back. love you.

these days i'm dreaming about my princess alot. i don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing. it use to be like this when she broke up with me, then it reduced but these days it still goes on thru out the nights. i really do miss her so much, wish i can turn back time. but i can't. my causin balan whom i'll miss also told me the other day, all this is happening for a reason. if she didn't break me, i wouldn't have realised how low my life was at. no job, no education, no self respect. i guess he's right. thanks dude. will miss you and our drinking sessions....

well enough for today, tomorrow will be T - day 7. we'll talk more. you know i'm gonna miss F1!!!!!!! aaarrrgghhhhh.....!!!!!