For giving me the best days of my life

what is it about homosexuality thats scares us, the straight people? is it that it's not normal, or is it that their more blissful than we are? are afraid or angry? angry that how something so wrong (in our beliefs) can be so beautiful? to be entirely honest i don't know. i am one of those straight men who is you average stereo type homophobic dude. up till a couple of years ago, giving my friends a hug would make me uncomfortable. i hated the sight of gay men. i used to say line them all up, give me a badge and a gun...

last night i watched a sharon stone, ellen degeneres movie. about gay women. and the way they shared their love for each other, made me think how much everybody out there is just looking for it sometimes, and they'll take it in any form they get it. i mean as abnormal as it is to see two women together, last night watching it, it felt so right, it felt so blissful and perfect. it felt as though thats how it's suppose to be. for the first time i was jealous of a gay couple. i mean who gives a rats ass where you find love, but if you're gonna find something special like that, do anything, resist everything to hold on to it. thats what that movie thought me. so what if it's two women, least their happy with each other, and they both just wanna love each other, and completely give in to each other, unconditional love...something so powerful that it can destroy you or give birth to you.

i loved their love making scene, not because it fulfills every mans fantasy to watch two women together, cause it was so passionate, and it felt real, it felt like you want that. not for sexual reasons, but more emotional...

watch the movie, "if these walls could talk"

My tea's gone cold,
I'm wondering why I
Got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window,
And I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
It's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay
My head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there, they'll all imply
That I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad
It's not so bad

And I want to thank you
For giving me the best day of my life
Oh, just to be with you
Is like having the best day of my life

Push the door,I'm home at last
And I'm soaking through and through
Then you handed me a towel
And all I see is you
And even if my house falls down now
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me

And I want to thank you
For giving me the best day of my life
Oh, just to be with you
Is like having the best day of my life

dido - "thank you"...this was the soundtrack to the movie.

later...