dead man walking

everybody is asking me why am i calling myself this....

when i was young, my dad always called me 'snugglepuss'...after the cartoon character. i don't really remember why, but he always did. then when i got older a bit i use to talk too much, so people called me 'oldman', then the 'oldman' turned into 'oldbastard'. but after my horrible year (i mean this year) i was always 'rather be dead'. i mean the things i had to go thru. i can remember a time when i was screaming at the skies saying..."you'd better have something big planned for me!!! or why else are you trying to kill me but not finish the job!". then came the funny part "if you wanna kill me send some professionals, or do it yourself!!!, whats the matter, you, too chicken to come down and face me?!!!" then..."is that all you've got!!!"

but after surviving all that, i'd like to think i've reborn, i'm given a chance to start over again, true it WON'T be the same, true it's NOT going to be easy, true a HUGE part of me is lost and will NEVER be replaced....but (i'll stop at that....) but....

thats why i'm the new dead man walking

not a zombie la yuets!!! and not the undertaker as well, and i'm not in a suicidal mood neither, nor is it a movie tittle la azmi...

i'd like to think dead man walking, along angels and demons. fighting his way back to the face of earth. where he can be one with home, once again. hey make sure no video game poeple rip my idea of and make it into some ps2 game!!!

later......