so much to say...

i'll start with something most of us (somhow i doubt anyone readin my blog does feel this way) are ragging about. yesterday, silverstone was axed from F1 calendar! what the fuck is wrong with bernie eccelstone, this year it was one of the most exciting gp's...i mean think about it, last season the was no spa, next season there will be no more abby, becketts, the complex, the dunlop straight....all these famous sections will disappear from from F1, a huge part of F1 history, will just be wiped away just like that. in my mind circuits like silverstone, hokkeinheim, spa-franchochamp, monza, monaco are the pillars to the F1 calendar. they are the oldest circuits around and they've delivered time and time again, drives of the season, dog-fights only dared dreamed by the mortals. think about it, this season michael schumacher drove one of his best ever drives in monza, who can forget the famous mika hakkinen dummy move on schumacher at spa in 1998, barrichello's win at hokkeinheim in 2000, from eight place and without overtaking anyone, in the wet on dry tyres. aryton senna's last win at monaco in 1993, a career of 6 wins at the street circuit. and the famous michael schumacher pitlane win over mika hakinnen at silverstone in 1998. silverstone holds so much F1 tradition. the festival of speed before the gp, the F1 muzeum during F1 week. all this gone. did you guys know that ferrari won it's maiden win at silverstone in 1951. today silverstone, tomorrow which track is going to be axed for the hightech sepangs, shanghais, bahrains...i know technology break throughs is what F1 is build on. to go faster and challenge the time, to rewrite the laws of physics. the need for speed. but think about this, all these ideologies were born because of one thing, tradition! and in the brotherhood of speed tradition comes second to none. so all i have to say is after complaining that the sport is being run down by big budgets, a certain germans domination, tv-time-sponsor fued, bernie you're suppose to be saving the sport not add to it's misery so fuck you bernie eccelstone. (i sound like a brit already)....

from matters of speed to matters of my heart,

okay i talked to my princess online last night, all this after so much talk about the issue with yuets. yuets asked me "is she worth all this?" and i said "in all honesty, more than anything else in this entire world"...and yuets said "she is one lucky gal"...yuets, no one will replace my princess in my heart and there is nothing that will change my love for her, i know little, but this much i know, my love for her will never end, even after time. princess i love you, truly, madly, deeply...more than my life itself...

yuets gave me this peom...

in my next life i want to be a tear
to be born in your eyes
to live my entire life on you cheeks
and to die on you lips...

but i'll add one more line;

and to forever be a vapor in you taste....

thanks yuets for talking to me, but i didn't think i'd be talking about all this with you, i mean all my matters of my heart i'd only talk about it with ricardo and my mommy. which two of them i miss so much. before i came down to uk, i was sleeping on my mom's lap and crying my heart out, and she told me as long as she lives, everything will be fine...she'll make sure everything goes well, she promised. i love you mom...don't feel left out ricardo, i love you too my brother in arms. i told her that i still love her, and i think now she'll try and stay invisible to me as long as she can. i pray for you princess, i pray for you everyday. god will draft out you path and angels will guide you there, i swear it.

later my blog, my soul asylum.....