bride and prejudice

i went to the movies thinking i was gonna watch a denzel movie, but my housemates bought tickets for bride and prejudice, not too bad of a movie. bollywood meets hollywood. but my eyes were tearing all the time. watching the bollywood part of the movie made me feel so horrible. the only thing that came to my mind during the aishwariya rai dance scenes was my princess. the last hindi movie i watched was 'kal ho na ho', with my princess. after that i haven't watched hindi movie nor have i even listened to to a hindi song. damn...i felt so horrible. my princess dancing to 'do la ree' was just playing in my head and tears were flowing from my eyes. i have no idea how long more i can take this. my spirit is being haunted, my heart is being murdered everyday. just when i got up the way i did, i had to go and watch this huh...

do i deserve this much punishment, have sinned that much...W-H-Y? cries of a dying man....