Wednesday, October 13, 2004

death is an illusion

to kick the bucket, curtains, end of the road, to cash in, walk thru the tunnel....

there was once adrian and me were having a conversation about how we'd wanna go. adrian said disappear into the night (pills la, obviously). thats my biggest fear, t0 disappear. but when adrian looked at me and asked me how'd i wanna go, in a very joking manner i told him that a gunshot to the head. i even added that i wouldn't wanna pull the trigger, probably attach a string from the door knob to the trigger, then call on somebody. heahehea.."honey...come in for a second".

but honestly, how would i wanna go...

remember Bicentennial Man, both andrew and amanda lie down next to each other and they get switched off by galatea. (how am i remembering all this?)....perfect, in a technical sense.

well i wish mine was a little different, instead of a bedroom, how about we shift to the beach (maui or mexico coast), hang out there during the night, talk all night long and watch the sun rise together. then end up together on one deck chair with both of us in each others arms, 'faith of the heart' (or 'to be with you', or 'can't help falling in love') playing in the background. a nice cocktail drink in both of our hands. we smooch all day, nuzzle noses together, i stare into her big brown eyes all the time, her huge therapeutic smile, and take her scent in the whole time. the nice beach breeze, just remain like that till sunset. just before sunset, i'd like to say..

"my life was a dream and you were my neverland. you gave me zest for life, you gave me tears, you gave me smiles, joy, pain, lust...you gave me a destiny to fullfil, a journey to complete and today i thought it would end, but now looking into your eyes and i see my reflections and i know without a shodow of a doubt, my death is an illusion, cause my love for you is immortal...i love, you and only you, forever....."

just then i'd kiss her forehead and clutch her in my arms. my eyes should mellow down...and i fade into an eternity of hers...

"it's been a long road..."

now THAT is immortality at it's best, and god, if you're reading my blog, you know, work your magic.....

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