and so the journey continues...

well i finally got myself a job, oh yes! and its actually a pretty good job, all things considered i'll be working for the goverment, Leeds City Council. i had to take a police check, British Crime Buro will be running a background check on me. how interesting...

i watched 'chandramukhi' today, it's a tamil horror movie. well actually it turns out to be some split personality movie. damn just like 'hide and seek'...i wonder who copied whom? heahehae, anyways the actor was Rajnikanth, the tamil superstar, so there was some, how do i put this...err, 'gempak' to the movie. thumbs up for the movie.

and i'm still bored of this country, i still hate the weather and i still think malaysia is better, why i said that, come here and live for a year, you'll know. i wont downsize anything without my very own attachment towards it. so england can go shove itself up....errr?

i was talking to few 'bloggers' and most of them told me that once they realised that a lot of people are reading their blogs, they become conscious of what their writing and who reads it. i ask...whats the whole fucking point? if we're gonna start filtering our thoughts and emotions i think we're living a lie. i know my mom always say, 'if you've got nothing nice to say, shut up' and i totally agree. BUT...if you are out there saying stuff, writing stuff into your blog as a point of opinion, then the people reading it should be open enough to accept it as an opinion. whether it is wrong, right, offensive, political, judgemental...i say to you pls don't give a fuck. pls don't take something thats honest and turn it into another sham of this inperfect superficial world. where everything ISN'T as it seems.

whats so wrong with being honest? i ask again, why do you prefer to hear something thats not genuine? i mean, if you think you can't handle what the person is saying, leave the room, or in this case the website. i know sometimes its a whole lot better to avoid confrontations. but i ask again, wouldn't there be less fury if everything was out on the open? i'm not saying i'm this super honest guy thats never lied and has always expected people to be absolutely honest with me. but i do believe that i have to be brutally honest, with myself, thus i give a mojo, thats honest within the people i bond with.

i have gone back on my standings before...it almost cost me the greatest friendship i've ever known and ever since, i firmly believe;

"the cruelest lies are told in silence..."

so if you think you guys are doing everyone else a favor by being quiet about it or about not being honest about something, think again..cause at the end of the day, a lie, no matter how well disguised, with cherry's and sweet icing, it's still a lie.

Lord Krishna says, 'A lie that saves a life, is not a lie at all...' but he also says, 'such a lie does not exist...'

so people, lie from the bottom of your hearts.

later...