make me see again...

gerard has lost complete vision of his left eye, sigh...so sad. the doctor said he has a severe case of cataract. i was there explaining everything to him, poor fellow, he is kinda afraid of losing his eye sight. hope he gets well soon which should be next week. his appointment for the surgery is next week at 9am. i'll be there with him, my parents held my hands thru all my blind entries.

you know i was thinking to myself, while i was mopping the floor and watching idiots trampling over it again and again, have you ever stopped to think how the guy mopping the floor feels when you walked over the floor he had just mopped. i guess not but i had always said sorry whenever i had done that.

back HOME i drove i luxury 2.0 sedan, here i TAKE the bus...
back HOME i went to five star hotel gym, here i WORK in a 3 star gym...
back HOME i dressed to kill, here i dress to CLEAN...
back HOME i ate in fancy restaurants, here i eat at GREGGS...
back HOME i loved LEAVING the country, here i love going back HOME...

so why is it i didn't wanna go back, a raise of hands to show how many want me back? how many think i'm deserting my home, how many think i'm abandoning my beloved mother for a few quids...

weird how i never said i never want to return, just wanted to be here for awhile, i guess wanting to stay away, and then listening to WK talk about the glory of home, and then 'how could you abondon you mom, for all this, after all she has done for you?'...now i'm just a statistic.

make me see again, my trail home, the path i left bread crumb behind.

later...