it's a long road.

it's along road back home, isn't it? i wish i could go back right now. there isn't a thing i want more than to be home right now. my grandmother past away a couple of hours ago. she's my paternal grandmother, i didn't know her that well, but everytime she saw me, she'd always hug me cause i look like my dad. i only saw her maybe once every two years or something. i dunno if i'm feeling for my dad more than for her. i know what it means to miss your mother, i miss my mom so much right now.

so much things have happened, i mean i've talked to my princess lately, twice...

something so meaningful happened to me a couple of weeks back, when jerad called me to his house for dinner. he cooked crab it was wonderful, since i don't know how to eat by my hand, jerad actually broke the crabs for me....just like my mom or dad would. it meant something, something i can't explain.

last night me and navein were having a conversation about god and today i saw his magnificient work first hand. my parents didn't wanna tell me about my grandmothers death, and yet there was an earthquake back home in sumatera and i called home to find out how people are? turns out they were all in my dad's hometown at the funeral. one way or another he made call back...i can't explain this but don't worry i'm not gonna say god made an earthquake just for me...

i wish i could talk to ric or my mom right now....

i'm in a state of twilight zone. lucky i've finished my thesis.