change my mind

i know i said i was only going start writing a few days before leaving to UK but i decided i'll start writing now anyways...

things are kinda scary now in my life...things a seemingly more and more certain that i'm actually gonna go to the UK

all my friends want to come send me off, to be honest i really don't want anyone there, even my parents. it was suppose to be the happiest day of my life. back in march i saw this beautiful ring, diamond ring ofcourse, it was very simple white gold band with a small piece of diamond on it. i wanted to give that ring to a very special person in my life, just before i board the plane. not as an engagement ring but as a promise ring. a promise that i'll always think of her when i'm there, a promise that i will return for her, a promise that when i'm settled, the first thing i do is ask her hand in marriage. but in april out of the blue, she said she doesn't love me anymore. so ricardo if you're reading this i guess you'll know why i don't want you to come send me off. it'll be cool if you guys were that as originally planned, me giving the ring to her infront of everyone, making my promise as my friends and family as witness, but i guess you're right...shit happens!